my aphrodisiac, my intoxication

It's all in the mind

I'm not feeling very well now. I feel so dizzy and bloated to an extreme point. It's the problem that I, and any other women faces every month. Period cycle. I've been having this problem since I-can't-even-remember-when.

But back then things were alot different. I was anorexic (sp?). My weight flopped below the minimum bar and I didn't looked at food the way I see them now. Nope, I'm not exaggerating. I went to a complete blackout every now and then, getting dietician's appointment and the last thing I did was to grab my late mom's attention. Since then she'd be the one who wud looked after my meal and topped up my medications every month as I was too lazy to get my diet organised. I was so skinny even a standard new socks slip through my feet *hehe* But that was then, am a phat cow now (*_*)

Even today I had to excuse myself from work cuz I sensed the symptopms were coming i.e. nausea, cold feet and appetite loss! I went to the clinic to get my meds and boi was I happy to see the pills. Spent the whole afternoon resting and guarding my tummy.
Sometimes I wish she was here.

Right now my back aches, my bum and tummy are twisting! I usually go for oats to substitute my dinner and avoid lactose ingredients to combat the muscle cramps but tonite, I've prepared myself a protien-packed meal and a warm cup of green tea to go wif!

I'm in haven.